So, I've made no attempt to keep secret my separation from my partner... and have been content to live my days of late as a single person. We spoke a few weeks back over the telephone (he's currently in Argentina) and he told me that he would like to work things out. I had a suspicion way back that this might happen, and it was for this reason that I disclosed the reasons for our separation to my friends and family... so that if we did decide to give things another go, I would have to feel so sure about it that I would be willing to subject myself to the embarrassment of returning to a partner that played me like a fool... and yet as my father used to say, "It takes two to tango" and I must bear some responsibility for allowing our relationship to head in the direction it did. I dunno, I guess this is one of those situations that comes along with adulthood. It's not always the house with the white picket fence...
In other news, I've grown a bit keen on a magazine my aunt introduced me to entitled 'Clean Eating.' Lots of interesting recipes and even 14 day menus to work from. I think I'll give it a go come this fall post-PCP. Speaking of PCP, I feel... happier in my body. Between injuries (sports medicine appointment next Thursday for my wrist) and other other matters, I'm no Ryan Reynolds but I think that I'm heading in the right direction for me.
...and lastly, my libido went wonky the other day! A cute Japanese guy with a lip ring just set me off, which is unusual because I don't typically imagine myself going for asian guys... but I was just ready to pounce! This is probably good for me, because my libido has gone through periods where I have had little interest in initiating relations (what a strange term *laughs*) with my partner. Still have no immediate interest in being in a relationship, as I don't think it would be fair to the other person, when a few question marks remain concerning my prior relationship...
It's good you are analyzing your relationships and being considerate of others involved. As long as the other person knows what's going on, or where you are at, I say date as much as possible after a break up. All this from the girl who just went through a break up during the PCP and has only dated once since. Breaking up while training and eating strictly blows, but turned out to be very beneficial in the end. Peak is my beau.
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