Day 24

One of the character faults that I've discovered of myself is a fear of confrontation. For the past few weeks I have been working to remedy this by being more assertive.

As I walked home from campus after last night's exam, I thought that the current state of affairs between Cesar and I wasn't to either of our benefit. Later that evening, I sat down with him and explained that he didn't have to like me or the fact that I was living with him, but nothing was going to change the fact that for the next while we would be sharing an apartment together. So we could either make the best of the situation and treat each other like human beings worthy of common decency, or resort to our more baser instincts and create a living hell on earth. He agreed.

...BUT as it turns out, he'll be departing for Peru in the week or so and won't be returning until sometime in September. So while my new-found assertiveness appears at first glance to have been for naught, I'm still proud of myself for taking the opportunity granted to me by this unpleasant situation, and working to resolve it to the benefit of all parties involved.

It is a bit disheartening to see the regressive of Cesar's character towards that which I would associate with the beginning of our relationship five years ago (though I didn't quite see it as clearly then as I do now). Running away to Peru isn't going to resolve any of his problems, and I let him know this, adding that he should be wary of waking up one day to the sad realization that he has squandered his life by not fulfilling his potential (here referencing a mutual acquaintance of ours that I think we both agree has done so).

I am a bit excited to have the apartment more to myself. I'm not the type of person that enjoys excess noise and such (whereas Cesar as not problem blaring dance music for hours on end), and it should aid in rendering the apartment a comfortable atmosphere in which to exercise again.